Fate

Now may it be the last time
I would be blogging
Or some other time
To blog

As tomorrow is another day
To be conquered oneself
With the usual people
In daily working lifes

Hey, we cannot choose
Or the fate we were borne into
Or give in; as this is not the way
Change will I

You may hate me for this
Or thou' might find this extremely funny
Some would classify me as insane
Or truly insane..............

Sigh.........if LIFE is any easier
With the hearts affairs; and the life affairs
Now taking one step at a time
Without hurting someone whom

You realize now in your own heart
That is for me to know
Not for you to find out
As prefer to keep everything below radar

That is the way I like my things are
So now is the time for me to stabilize myself
In terms of career before proceeding into the
Hearts affairs...............at this rate

Just Say It

Just some of the thoughts that come across my mind lately : Consider it a curse or not also cannot if not what is the point in having a brain for. For processing information, generating new ideas; forming opinions, lashing out dissatisfactions, anger as well as other mundane stuffs which is in our daily lifes....................

Jesus Christ; with the blogging way that I have been blabbing lately it is a sure sign of work depression................Hunger to challenge myself further............Improving further; sharper, wittier, just get on with life as the way it is for now.................

These are my following thoughts at the moment :

Some would consider my life
To be a luxury one
Put it this way
The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence

How much we have put in
Do not declare on how much we are
Able to achieve in life
The chances to prove ourselves

I would say to be endless
As typing now
Either now I am consider as a 'walking zombie'
The better way is 'insane writer bipolar disorder'

Sounds absurb to some
My life; some would be calling them torturing
Others would be commenting : Oh!!How nice!!!
In short; how nice can it be???

If this question is answerable
I would not even have this blog
In the first place
Finding my own career, life and trekking around the world

Some are earlier than mine, later than mine, or even 'on time'
Very funny; on how life can actually turn out to be
At this very moment; just be grateful where you are now
For me there are some issues or targets not achievable yet

Just say it; lash out the anger than to keep it inside
Either it will kill you inside out
Than to be keep silence killing you further
For spiritual;emotional, physical well being

In the first place we would not be
Classify as a human being
We are able to do on how things are done
As we have put ourselves in charge

If life is any easier than this
Easier said than done
The path is not as smooth
If smooth; then GOD bless us so.................

At The Edge of Insanity

Call me 'ironic' would sounds appropriate........or otherwise. As at the moment; I do not know how to classify myself. With my parents 'pecking' behind my back is worse than having one's own personal space. Especially with the condition which I am in now. There is no such thing as 'freedom'...............Anymore.........

Unlike my sister who has the benefits of both of them...............The advantage is that she is the youngest...............And her words is more 'premium' than mine...............Tell me how on earth on the pretext on having both your parents practically 'doted' and 'sayang' most the youngest and push you away at the age of three.

Is there any other way to solve this dilemma??? I am currently in the midst of finding out what is the matter with my sister's world better than mine. Put it in short; when both sets of parents come from families who actually doted on the youngest and to the extent of 'spoiling' the youngest. And yet it makes no difference when they are condemning their own families whilst they are actually doing so at the moment. Pretty irony; don't you think so??? It may sounds absurb but it is real. Especially after coming back from work or whatever; they will actually throw their tempers at you and start calling names; condemning you and to the extent of insulting your intelligence. Sometimes I wish that I have my own pad to my get away from them.

When I am not with them; they will start complaining that I am not at home often to spend time with them; what is the use of my younger sister who actually has the time now.............

Since she has lots of time to spend with them...........The only thing I want now is to establish my career before stepping out from the place one calls 'home'. There is a saying 'home sweet home' but it sounds otherwise for some...........................Anyway; I have blabbed too much at the moment..........It is very frusrating at times when things are not going according to your way.

A New Lease of Life

Finally, I am free from all of the negativity, stupidity and the boredom..............I still need to find a fix place to place my footings on. As you can see; ; looks like my career pathway is still in a very 'unstable state'. Fortunately, for me at the moment.............under contract with that stupidity I was able to let it go....................I was already at the edge of insanity just to control my state of mind.

After that, I was pretty happy, carefree to be away from all of those 'lots'.............Anyway, I will be facing a new 'one' soon..................Better play 'smart and dumb' at the same time.............Need to look after my own interest..............And my own career....................Forget about those who are not appreciative on what I am able to do..............................It is their loss anyway.......

The next around where I will be in................They will need to put where their words are........
Once said cannot be taken back.......................These regrets will be forever remembered for some but not for all of them..................Even those who had already sabotaged my career...........

Free At Last Fr Pat Pohs............JMI

Look at it this way; I may not talk much in the office but after office hours it will be mine. If the procedures wise and the people around me are being too 'kay poh' or 'pat pohs' or 'aunty pah pohs' or 'si lai pat pohs'................Wor bei hiau kong liau already...............Look at it this way.........What goes around comes around.............Why bother............With such 'pat pohs' Jinjang Malaysia Idiots.................Looks like they have come from a very different wavelength. They may label me 'straight'...................Okay; at least in 'straight' but in sophisticated situation like this is how to 'play dumb' if they intend to make me 'victim'. What can I say; it's my karmic actions from past lives...............Or somewhere else................Anyway this stupid organization already has so many 'spare parts'.....................Or would I say 'cheap parts' to spare at the moment...................In terms of relationships looks like 'Cina Ah Pek' who is having no 'cow sense'..................No wonder they are so many paper works and also many redundancy in doing the same things again.................No wonder the Westerners would want things quick, fast and efficient.................Not too many signatories or whatsoever.........Non-Sense or Cow Senses....................

The inferiority complex reflects on how much our society has 'developed' or would I say 'progress'................We may progress with technologies but are we capable with 'morality' or 'consciences'.....................GOD has been testing so many things and the situations are sometimes very unbearable...............If we are conquered by Westerners...............A word of English like pronounciation is very 'chah' as well as 'looking down'.................Westerners are the types who would be 'squeezing the lives' out of your breath.......................But they have not witnessed yet..............Let them talk..............What the hell!!! So what............one thing your organization does not show any prospects and also in terms of turnover..............Looks like it is more prospects in the oil and gas industry than this idiotic one................

Still smaller company with the function as an adminstrator suits me well rather than working overtimes non-stop without any background in specialized areas................The more specialized the more pay but also the more 'sufferings' and also 'homeworks' for the money......

No wonder the women most of them I met usually the husbands rely on the wives' income as they are not capable earning as much as their wives..............It is a bit degrading for the husbands for them to feel like that???Don't you think so..............????? Even the companies are taking more loans from banks but in terms of 'repayments' no wonder the banks are so worried...................Nowadays with non-performing loans....................So much written off non-performing loans..........................

Jinjang Malaysia Idiots Society

Please take note that everything which I penned down in this blog is a mere of opinions; in short it has no relations with so ever. If the person who thinks so; I am sorry to inform that the minds of 'these' undeveloped beings are very disheartening.

Nowadays; the society which we are living now are filled with heart sick and mentally unstable people. If the person is subject to such LIFELESS lifestyle apart from not having any out of office activities................In short; the lives is only working...............It is a really dead end life in searching of material comforts and not having any spiritual activities besides working non-stop like dogs...........Dogs is the concise term which I think of at the moment.......

Instead of having quality life but in life the society is more 'live to work' not 'work to live'..............There is no enjoyment at all..............Most of the people are more like 'live to work'...............not the other way round............I prefer a rather laid back lifestyle than having the latest gadgets which you have no idea how to use it but mere of showing off................It is a pity now that society is becoming more 'hopeless' and more 'heartless' and also 'brainless' since money is so important........................In short; most of them do not use 'common sense' in what they are doing...............What a pity; that is the function of the brain.....................

Chi Sin

Okay...................For now I am in red the main reason is because I have been working non-stop for the past few weeks without even resting..............Includings Saturdays; the entire day.......What do you expect; the company which you are working now is doing para-running as they are switching from the old systems to the newer version systems for updates......

Apart from that; I think I am going to go insane soon............Enough; as far as it is concern......
Work is work; play is play................And I prefer to separate both as not to complicate things further in my life.............With the non-office activities is increasing as well as office activities; looks like it is increasing with the equal pace.................What do you expect when you are very, very uncertain with your own futures although you have already put heart and mind into doing things the way YOU want them to be...............

I think for now with those activities.................Now my mind seems to be turning in Freaky Idiot already....................Had been through too many negative things but do not know how to differentiate positive happenings.......................So far it is concern.............for now is my career..

Getting Established

As for now; everything seems to be going 'uncertain'...............with lots of speculation or even finding my 'dream job' is like finding a needle in a haystack. Apart from that; it is a pathetic situation to get out from...........

Imagine your 'old man' or your father who is the one who thinks he knows everything but the fact that he is actually ignorant. How can you determine that you are able to get a permanent post when you are in the position of uncertainty. If he is able to answer this question then he is GOD...............It drives me mad sometimes just to get the message across and plaster into his head.

Other than that; the contract can expire and also you are also not the boss who will decide who is staying and who is not..........And who are you keeping to work with you......................
However; everything is uncertain and also not permanent at the moment. There are times I wish that I am able to meet positive people like my ex-boss COO of the oil company where I had worked with..........The people whom I had met during my line of work sure is either LIFELESS or just plain 'pathetic'.................

If there is an answer to my situation which I am in now; I wish that I am in an oil company where I was happily working with positive people but only with a couple of monkeys who do not work at all.

Your Wish Is My Command

Okay call me anything that you want to write on this particular issue; as for now I have managed to 'overcome' the phobia............of a certain type but the next issue is making sure that my position is permanent. How am I suppose to determine this step??? First of all, I am not the boss to take care of the business and I do not know how much are you going to pay me also...........The other thing is I also do not know whether the sort of productivity is up to your mark..........

Apart from that; also I am only a mere 'employee' as a temp to help to ease the workload........
of the organization..........However; the people I meet there are 'nice' people............You can never tell out the secrets from anyone...........If there is a Genie here who is able to grant me the following wishes would be :

1. I want to have a permanent job until the day I retire; if not by annual contract basis (after retire).
2. If there is another 'half' of me do appear; please let me know...........I do not want to die alone.
3. I want a new car, digital camera, new handphone, new laptop...........for my personal contribution to the society which I am in...............To ease my own workload both career and welfare.
4. Travel around the world........backpacking; or with luxury comfort.............depends on $$$$.


So; Genie please hear me so..............Please let me know................Or please grant me the following wishes..................

THE SECRET

Applying THE SECRET is not easy...............Luckily; I went to the weekend IGC with much persuasion from MJ.........who insists that I must go since I am looking for a permanent post....
As a matter of fact; the CINA AH PEK which I am working now................memang enjoying 'bullying' me................Maybe I let them be................Okay.........You can call me submissive but at least with the work................Now; I can leave within 24 hours notice but with the expense of my cheque to be due by the end of the month............And I hate this type of management style..............Especially with this type of STUPID MORONS...............

Yes...........they intend to make my life misreable but I am not going to submit to their tactics but more of overcoming the problems by working properly................Without stepping on each of these idiots toes.............Tolerance is the name of the game...............With such underhanded tactics; it really displays the stupidity of homo sapiens in being a power crazy............Maniacs..

The bonus is that I have managed to get the job just outside my housing area..............The problem is I will begin my work on the 1st of July instead earlier..............Since I intend to finish my contract with JMI............or Jinjang Malaysia Idiots.............

Work smart............but not to be outsmarted by those in Jinjang office.......

What is True Love???

Alright, you can call me a fool who is actually trying to find out what is the meaning of true love??? If only, I am able to answer this particular question then I am considered a GOD or anything so divine with magical powers....................Sigh............Sigh.............

Well, one of the advantage amongst all my friend is that I am still single and available.........Not to the extent to take advantage of at the moment.........Don't you ever think that I am that gullible to be made fun of or even to be match make with somebody for Christ Sakes.................
with whom I have no idea who that person is anyway....................In short; please let fate take care of this for me..................Sometimes this one also needs "work"; I mean both parties who truly love each other who they really are with good and bad characters 'campur' together gether lah......................

Okay, okay.........................maybe I have been thinking too far at the moment.............What to do my personality is like that.................Take it or leave it............................No wonder I actually name this blog called Mong Cha Cha...............equivalent to MCC......................Such irony.........Currently, this Cina Ah Pek company which I am in is very near my housing area................but the setback is it is located in an industrial area very far inside.....................

Put it this way; there is no way I am going to look for another job.............Because I am way too tired to seek for another one as well as too tedious.............If this job is the 'One'..............Maybe a permanent post...............will not be an issue................Anymore.........It is already getting into my nerves...............Too much already calling, seeking, finding, as well as asking.......................My dream job..................My dream job.....................Later part of my life I will do so to find my dream job.............Now is to secure one first..............Serve longer years if not until retirement also never mind..................Still long way to go...........................

What is this life anyway....................Without someone to share with????? It is a bit bored though, but it depends on fate...................

A Stupid Day

Last night, I hardly had a good sleep. Moreover, this morning was also the first day for me to start as a temp in JMI : data entry clerk. Please note that this contract is only for two months only. In fact, everytime whenever I attend those interviews informing those peoples or the heads frankly telling them I had no direct experience in handling full sets of accounts etc..........
With their responses; we will guide you through the process or the day to day operations......etc.....At the end of the day, it has always backfired.........Not forgetting the wraths and the 'naggings'.............you know who.........

My parents : calling me a 'failure' is already a hindrance enough; not forgetting that I cannot choose them since I was 'concepted' in my mum's womb.........Not that I did not try hard enough............Working smart means observe the surroundings, the people, the 'many' factors..Senses..............make full use of the senses that we have..............

In the temp place, I was taken back because it is a Cina Ah Pek company majority of them are women................The problems as usual gossips, backstabbings, schemes or whatever things..................Women usually do............In the office.....Just to do one simple thing I do not know how many round I need to do to complete a simple task...........Everything also so 'kiam siap'................At least I know I will get my paycheck at the end of these two months.........My working hours are from 9am to 6pm..........Good heavens it is only five days week without overtime.............As I am not a permanent staff there............

After office hour on the first day, I had an interview appointment with an application which I applied online. Why most of the women bosses I met throughout my working lifes are considered bad cases???? If only, I can change and become more of my sister instead of 'me'...She actually offered me a finance post.......As usual I told her that I do not have any experience in accounting................At all, in fact she informed me that the areas are specialized and the process need to be monitored................The bonus is very near to my house.......The benefits are the best amongst those working places which I had worked before.......Just keep my fingers cross............

Getting back to the house and getting myself cleaned up, my father only knows how to justify that he is always right in his views after informing about the interview which I attended in the late evening...................In fact, he condemns the most without looking at himself and preaching............About everything, sometimes it really makes me sick just to stay in the house................With my parents...............

If I Were A Man

I do not know how to put them as poems or just words popping out from my brains. I had this inspiration from gathering which I had attended on the 1st May,2007; from the centre which is a part of the contribution to the less fortunate :

If I were a Man
By mistake whereby I was borne by mum
Here the burden is the same as now
Experiences one would consider as Ah Hmmm...

First let me tell the advantages
I would not be on a nine months transport
Carrying my babe
Enduring aches, pains as well as labour pain

Breastfeeding, as I would not have any breasts
Feeding milk to my babe
Period cramps, monthly discharge as a woman
Additional tests done by doctors

Depends on what types of diseases
Which I am going through as a woman
Now as a man, there is manicure, padicure
Facial treatments on a regular basis

If I am vain enough to do so to look after my
Beauty one will put them
Yet these experiences as a man
Is not even one yet; therefore no comment at the moment

Disadvantages would be
I need to have a steady income with a prestigious company (or a business)
To support my wife, kids, car loan, house loan, marriage loan
Name whatever loans that pop into your mind

Not forgetting my parents; if they are in good terms
With my wife : the issues of daughter in law and monsters in law
Would be a bonus to have lesser worry to be on which side
My wifey or my parents??

Need to maintain my six packs with exercising
To keep my body in shape
Before a pot belly appear with constant eating
And being a couch potato

Bonus would be instead of cooking but
In doing plumbing, car maintenance, you name them
Darling dear, my wife would put them
Please help me to fix this or that

One difference would be
Instead of me nagging my wife
My wife will be nagging me
I will be in a 'switch off' mode

After hard day of work
As her daily driver, daily recorder
Her rock, as well as her confidant
If not why are we together???

We are together
Because as a man
I woo her, court her, worship her
Now as her husband, I am taking care of her

Isn't this is called teamwork? My dear friend...........

Festivities

Just one thing to make it short : For me festive season is just like any other day as I do not actually favour the mumbo jumbo in celebrating festivities. Some would classify me as a 'festive freak'.................Okay some really enjoy them but for me it is not just enjoying those moments but it is more of reflecting on what we are upholding in our daily lifes................

Not just because we celebrate this then we will become more of this or that...........Well, maybe for me the festivity is a matter of holidays as well as rest............For some it may means different things................I do not know what some would call it.............

As long the heart is clear, honest, pure conscience, truthful to the heart as well in willingly to do these then it is a 'pure festivity'.....................Okay looks like I am talking in Jane Austen style...............Sigh......................Sometimes, it is also very difficult to comprehend these philosophical thinking into thoughts.....Maybe that is the problem which I am having now.................Putting them into simple English to understand......................

Jesus Christ!!! Maybe this paranoidness................is starting to get into my nerves now........

Hmmmm..................Cannot wait to land onto my 'dream job'....................Thanks to my mentor.'You are just the dose to help me to improve myself further'.............She (ex-COO from oil company) has made my life into a 'musical perspective'. Okay..............just term me a maniac in putting into those terms....................What do you think of this 'homo sapiens'???