Are We In The Right Mode? Now?

Okay, call it the ATTACK of the INSANITY STREAK!!! Looks like with the writers' block; wonder how long this is going to be rewired to the normal mode again.............Let's not talk about this crazy blogger waiting list to Hospital Bahagia now............Think or contemplate something more objective like the Junta case in Myanmmar now................

Call it the HUMAN MODE............of SANITY....................When we think the grass is greener over the other side but when it comes to such a situation...........Do we feel grateful? The answer is definitely a YES!!! If this blogger were to analyze the current situation objectively...It would seem more of an arguement or a debate over this issue...................In fact, we have to look inside our conscience to think back and even figure out the PRECEPTS we have taken in our daily LIFES or in our RENOUNCIATION.....................Which this blogger is putting them in a BIGGER PICTURE.................

Are we practising now? Do we need rewiring to the extent killing one innocent being to fulfill a requirement of the military? Are we doing the 'right' thing? Have we being brought up this way? Can any of you answer this question at all?This blogger may have a VERY LONG WAY in terms of theory in the language of the forgotten one or even lacking in terms of knowledge...Just to put one thing straight....................Anger cannot conquer with anger.............But only with LOVE we can conquer ANGER.................The display such civic mindedness of a layperson is a display of non-civic citizens on what we have been taught..............You are talking the focal point of religion which binds a country together.............We are the NATION.............and WE are also the PEOPLE......................

Do we want to lose another life? Over such matter when we are able to do so as normal being would be doing which is PEACE................NOT WAR..................This will bring DOOMSDAY.......even the YOUNG ONES...............who are also innocent LIFES.....................Do YOU want to lose them or lose a NATION???? Can we do it GENTLY like the way of Mahatma Gandhi....Even normal things like helping an old woman across a street or help her to carry a bag....Is a start?Don't you think so?????

In short; for POLITICS...............this blogger will definitely FAIL.....................!!!! It has never been this blogger forte'................Each of HOMO SAPIENS are being blessed with different abilities : It is only UP TO YOU.......................To do something for a CHANGE..........Aren't we?

Sometimes

Sometimes we do not know we have the greatest treasure until we go to another person's home to make us reflect on what we have........................Just went through a blog by this particular guy in budgeting travelling.............In fact, until we realize just how important the things we take for granted in our daily lifes..................As in our daily teachings and mental health..................

Just call this fella a nut case; for your information dear readers...............Maybe, having a writers' block for fairytales............Up to this extent............need to release the Bing Bang Bong of Insanity Streaks..............If not why do you think this blog is being called Mong Cha Cha..........................

You see talking non-sense again!!! Jesus Christ.............Wonder how many times.................This insanity streaks.....................In popping in and popping out again...................

In fact to make dear readers' life simpler..............We will only realize how important and the normal things which we take for granted like Astro on Demand, cars, shopping complexes, cinemas, as well as travelling places............and the amount of money we have and who we have beside us..................If compared those who do not have any of the luxury items one would be calling them.....................Sometimes.........It makes us look back on what we are really missing...................Ourselves.................Like the book Snow in Summer by Rev. Syadaw Jotika...................'Be true to myself'

Apart from what he had said in the book of his, you better read them to find out than telling to you.................Reading it will make us understand on what we are actually missing and who we really love all the time..........................

Back To Reality

There are some things cannot be changed at all. In fact, we are the CHANGE when the change we want them to be. Maybe; putting them into words properly is another issue but we are the ONES who DECIDE whom we really want to be with and to hold on to when we are feeling at the worst state.

At least for now; this brain of this blogger is starting to churn out harsh realities to this blog. Revealing too much of this blogger is not a priority but telling out from different perspectives and angles to LEARN from people, bosses, acquitances, friends, fiends and many more to see. Yet; there is neverending learning even from the way we are being moulded from young. However, LIFE is just BUMPS that actually slow us down but WE still need to MOVE ON with LIFE.....................

Sometimes; if there is a fairy godmother who can make your wish come true like tales from Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty or Beauty and the Beast.....................That is will be an irony facts of LIFE which is unlikely to happen. In the first place, this is the place where this blogger can make fun of self and LIFE : Not to take LIFE too SERIOUSLY..................Make OTHERS LAUGH with YOU than YOU CRY ALONE.......

Jesus Christ; how often do you find such LUNATIC putting such statements in the blog. This blogger knows TRUE LOVE is REAL LOVE.........................it is too refined a term to study the psychology aspects of human behaviours, as well as spiritually..................In fact; it covers everything................Nothing is as PURE and UNDERSTANDING in terms...................That is for now to put them...................

Dear readers; fairytales will resume soon...................But the date of the installments will be posted for your readings......................Good night from this LUNATIC................

InHuman Behaviour

Dear readers; for the fairytales is currently suspended at the moment as this simpleton have something which is more important to educate and bring up the matter to the public : INHUMAN BEHAVIOUR who are calling themselves Homo Sapiens with indecent acts of crime..................

Why do you think this topic is brought up here in this blog? One of the main reasons is to open the eyes of those who have yet encounter such slimy, leechy types of personalities....................
You may think why this blogger is so angry while blogging on this issue..................

Today headline : A young girl of the age between six to eight years old was sexually assaulted and her private parts were forced in with cucumber and brinjals!!!! And she was stuffed inside a blue and black bag!!! And you call this human behaviour normal???? How are you to ensure your children will be safe walking just outside the house or with a friend whom you can trust??? Such act of INHUMAN ACT of PERVERTS..

Few years back we did an education on sexual assault................As this blogger find this quite relevant..................How are we suppose to punish these PERVERTS who intend to let go of their lust on young children!!!!! Don't they have anything better to do than to hurt those innocent children who have no idea on what SEX is in the first place....................Put yourself in the children shoes.................How are they suppose to react on such circumstances.............
Moreover; they are suppose to enjoy their childhood and not a subject of child prostitution, child pornography, or even a 'sex toy' for some countries..............Can we put a stop to such INDECENT EXPOSURES to children.......................

We; as adults we know what is the meaning of SEX or MAKE LOVE and what do children know the meaning of these???? These acts is not normal or good can even create a HUGE IMPACT to their childhood........................And we are calling ourselves adults who are able to protect these kids from such HARM from PERVERTS...................Let this blogger explain to you in detail as education does not confine mainly in the classrooms but also of parents' nuture.............Guidance or even guardians to care for kids...................Sometimes; even at a certain age...............We are unable to run away from such circumstances when we have been 'taken in' or the case of being 'kidnapped'......................Can we do something for these kids before anymore children will be harmed?????

They are innocent babies....................By nature do not know anything unless with the proper guidance provided by their parents, proper authorities and even organizations who intend to curb such indecent or inhuman act of mother nature...................Can we do something for them before another young child succumb to such indecent behaviour of lust???? Or we do not know how but at least we can work together to achieve this together can we????

Fairytales - Part 2

Dear readers; let me tell you on how Mr. Jones accumulated his wealth and farm during his youth. As his three daughters are managing for him now. When he was young; Mr. Jones' parents were extremely poor to the extent of just enough to eat daily as he came from a big family. There were five girls and five boys. Mr. Jones is in between his elder sisters and brothers. In short; he is the sixth amongst his ten siblings. There were educated since the government had been providing free education for those who were poor and they were lucky enough to attend school but for his sisters they were not that lucky. As his father believes that women should stay at home and look after children.While, his mother is a homemaker who provides them food, advice, a listening ear and also their confidant when they could not confide in their father. As Mr. Jones's father was a very strict, as well as a firm believer in disciplining his children in values, hardship in earning their work by earning their father's trust in completing a task. His sisters were working as maids in well to do families in their areas to help support the family

Mr. Jones's father is a railway driver who needs to drive the steam train from one station to the other. Although; when he is at home he also made sure that his family have enough to eat and to provide for them. Imagine feeding ten hungry children and his wife. The amount of responsibilities which Mr. Jones's father had to care his family as well as the safety of his passengers in the steam train. Like any other family during his time; when they were at the age of maturity from sixteen years old to eighteen years old they were to search for jobs to fend for their family. Coming to that age; Mr. Jones went to search jobs in far away places in both towns and farms. As; he was still young and able he worked as a waiter, a busboy, a porter as well as a caretaker. He knew that without money there would never be enough to fend his family back home from where he came from. This went on a few years until he reached the age of about twenty three years of age. When he decided that he must have something stable and steady income to improve himself further. He decided to apply the job as a farmboy in almost every posters he sees while he was working and managed to find it in due time.

From then on, Mr. Jones had have always made a promise to himself that when he has his own family he does not want them to suffer like he did when he was young. He started as farmboy in the state of Westmoreland. There were Duke and his Duchess. The property was wide with land and huge amassed with many types of vegetations, well bred horses as well as many number of servants. Imagine if a young lad came out from a county and started working in a luxurious mansion with the amount of wealth from their great grandforefathers before them. The amazement as well as the unseen world which he had never seen before in his life; put it this way a culture shock!!!!

Fairytales - Part 1

This is one of the version of the fairytale which I had been wanting to write for a long time and maybe express them by using this way:-

There was a farmer who has three daughters and a loving wife. He once remembered how he used to fall in love with his wife during his youth. Now this once a dashing young man with vigour of energy, hopes and dreams has already grown old. As he is worry for his three daughters' futures as he has no heir to carry on with his family name and his wife had been with him for thirty years is no longer feeling well anymore. He was wondering how long can he survive to take care of his three daughters...............Any parents would feel worry and their worry seems to continue although they know their time to leave this earth. This farmer is called Mr. Jones and his once jolly, funny and beautiful wife is now shrinking and growing thinner daily. This is worrying Mr. Jones a lot; as he needs to spend more time with his wife than his daughters as he does not want to leave her alone unecessary.

Mr. Jones daughters are all smart, intelligent, witty and a good sense of humour. Their intelligence varies from his eldest to his youngest. His eldest is named Eliza. She is beautiful in a 'soft' and 'firm' character which goes with her attitude of Never Take No As An Answer in all of her dealings. No wonder the dealings of Mr. Jones farm is always in good hands. In short she is also similiar of character as Mr. Jones a really stubborn person who will stand firm with their decision. However, she dresses more of a farmer than a woman. Whilst, the second one is called Jenna. She is flirty, playful in every way and her clever ways in dealing with people in terms of interpersonal relationships. She is the exact opposite of Eliza as her attitude is easily influenced by other people decisions. Her 'follow the herd' or 'follow the peers'. If the beauty of Eliza and Jenna are equal. Moreover, Jenna has more suitors to choose than Eliza which drives Mr. Jones at the edge of insanity to think whether she will end up in 'good hands' or 'bad hands'. As for the youngest one is named Bonnie. She is the prettiest of amongst his three daughters. She is more homely, reclusive, and keep to herself. However, in terms of management of finances as well as farm management operations. Bonnie is the wizard of the three daughters. Apart from that, she is also taking care Mrs. Jones but her two sisters are not doing them on a rotation basis when they are suppose to do.

Heart Prints

While contemplating LIFE at the moment; sometimes there would be tender moments which will remain a SECRET..............Not even the best of the best of the buddy WILL NOT GET TO KNOW on some of the very SECRET details.....If tell out everything then it will not be a SECRET anymore.

Sorry to inform you this way my dearest Mitra, because this is a very PERSONAL ONE............The answer has always lies within US it is a matter on how we want to manage them..............Some of the things cannot be explained by using words because it cannot be put into words and the other thing is MEANT too much to be put into public posting.

A little listening ear may mean a lot to some people but to others may not but we are all humans. We made mistakes and we learnt from them : This is LIFE. We cannot live in the prisons of our undoings but sometimes the meaning of forgiving oneself is another matter.
The art itself is not even easy at all; those sleepless nights with almost nightmares when you close your eyes..................It brought back sorrows, and also unforgiving..................

Now those sleepless nights have been replaced with peaceful sleep and lesser burdens..........
Still indebted to the someone and also feeling guilty in putting that someone in such a difficult situation in the first place whereby is not suppose to happen at all. This is called HEART PRINTS.....................these prints if can be erased easily then it would not be that difficult but it seems to be futile at the moment with such unforeseen circumstances..................LIFE is definitely playing at the moment with so many things going on at the moment; especially when Mid-Autumn festival is just around the corner................

Wine

This section is dedicated who had been a pillar of strength in the voluntary service organization whom we had have been working together for many years. May his wife and him have a very happy and meaningful TIME and LIFE together while reading this. We go through LIFE as we live in the PRESENT MOMENT :

Though we have big age gap
Somehow from experiences
As kalaya mitras
We had been

One would be putting them
As words are flowing
Now from downstream
Flowing freely

To express inside deep
Inside OUR HEARTS
Not to show anything
We UNDERSTAND

Sometimes we do not know
How to put these emotions
Into words
By actions, touch,

Unspoken languages
Only eyes can see
Invisible yet profound
Like all HEARTS alike

Been together for
So many years
Our LOVE
Grow like the wine ages

With more meanings
With more memories
With the same visions
The same 'types' are we or not?

Yet unspoken
But true somehow
For this LIFE to tell
As we wander together

For so many
See so many, share so many
Good ones and bad ones
We are still together

This is the ESSENCE
Of a good marriage
Thru' ups and downs
Been together

One had been a pillar
The other the support
We lean towards each other
For our LOVE always been like WINE...........

As the wine grow older so does this LOVE which has always been part of our LIFES..................How and why such terms would be defined in one's experiences? Different people with different experiences comes in different packages...............Unlike some non-stop typing curse which have had been together.........................GOD knows for how long.......Anyway, if keep on typing then it would be more reading.............For those who enjoy reading.............However; for some who do not????? More questions??? Isn't it????

The Sound of Music

Shocking on such an hour, this particular movie would pop out of nowhere from this non-sense person in this orientation in LIFE.........With such a heartwarming storyline from our mothers' generations.......................This movie is still a bridge between us and them..................

Family line is like links.................These links can and cannot be broken...........Call it the POWER of KARMIC FORCES.......................Coming on at this age of new generations would be classifying them as the 'new era' for the FUTURE..................with the 'in' things.................

If we were to compare from their harsh period until now..............This blog would not even have the space to fit on................Moreover, you are talking about a real 'dummy' in the 'high tech' technology which need more to learn further.................Still not an expert.......Still learning and playing with words................

Furthermore, today is also a Saturday..........Call it a hibernation for a person.......Classified : eat a lot and sleep a lot..............Don't we all.................If given a chance to recuperate our batteries before the new cycle of activities come again............Bing Bang Bong and Bing Bang Bong of timing, timetables, people and non-stop working after office hour and non-office hours..................Not complaining but merely re-iterating........On LIFE..................Before ROT to BOREDOM...............That is not so for this LUNATIC here...........Come on with the tons of time in serving those who are less fortunate than us..................It will reflect in our LIFES.............

Sigh....................Need to do more workout and maintain the health if want to help more people in need......................If this LUNATIC is like Maria from the Sound of Music........Such optimism in LIFE................and LOVE....................Put it this way : It is a bit too difficult to believe sometimes.............Anyway what is LIFE???? There is always surprises from everywhere.........Sometimes there will be out of nowhere and it will change US and we CHANGE THEM......or THEY CHANGE US........................

Mummy!!???

This better be a JOKE..................Because never in this life with the first impression : this LUNATIC is being called MUMMY!!!!

Okay, with the plain looks of not so attractive like the ones in Cleo, Elle, Womens' Weekly cover pages........If given a chance anyone of us would be THANKING THE HIGH and MIGHTY LORD to give us such beautiful, attractive, seductive looks that can 'kill' guys with a glance.......Please tell me so if any of YOU DO SEE ONE!!!! Do mean LITERALLY............Get it?If you get the idea on what is the meaning LITERALLY....

This incident happened not once but TWICE..........The worst part was even more amusing when was mistaken for someone's else wife??? Hello, if there is a husband.............Not even a boyfriend.............Such irony...............Face it.......................Ahemmm................

Do not even think of asking me or even persuading me to go for speed dating, CUPID CLUB or whatsoever..................As for the FATE which matters.............Like this LUNATIC has always said that LIFE is PLAYING WITH YOU or WE ARE THE JOKES ....................Or KARMIC FORCES...............

Just shooting out from this berserking brain.........Words.....How are you able to stop them from popping out non-stop for your AMUSEMENT......................

Comics Of Life

Call it the most non-sensetical sense of oriental for this person here. For the past few days it had have made this person reflected on the most mundane matter in LIFE. LOVE..............
Okay, maybe it is a bit too far fetched.........in terms of mentality but when it has sinked on you....................How would you react in terms of emotions, spiritual, mental and physical.....
The verdict : NO ANSWER..................

If this can be explained in a scientific term, then it would be alright but in research which had been done throughout the years..............There is no definite answer for this phenomena or physcological aspects..................Trust me it can bring the best out of the person and also the worst out of the person..................In fact, this two comes together................It goes hand in hand.........

Put it in a more practical aspect : LOVE cannot buy HOUSE, CAR, TRAVELLING PACKAGES, and etc.................It is endless...................You cannot survive on LOVE alone................It comes in different packages for different types of people with different types of personalities...................Yours would come in time..............But we do not when YOUR KNIGHT in SHINING ARMOUR will appear.....................Like I have always said before................LIFE is playing with you...........................And it did.................

Name this practical JOKER who practically has no sense of orientation in routes, or whatsoever nonsense; but A JOKER will always be A JOKER.........................Just came out from the BATMAN MOVIE for your information darlings................

In Memory of A Legacy

'Come and see me when you are in doubts'. That was Chief Reverend words used to tell any of us who are in doubts in our LIFES, religion and also the most important is our self belief. In short, the TRUST and our MIND works................He left us on Merdeka Day.............And moved on................Christians would classify them...............

Exactly one year after his death, but his TEACHINGS, WORDS will be instilled in our memories of a GREAT LEADER..................Apart from that, it actually showed us that LIFE is as fragile as a child, as precious as GEMS...............Do we actually appreciate what we have on our hands now rather than LOSING them...................BEFORE it is too late for us to realize them????

Maybe, this is LIFE...............When we are about to LOSE something then we will realize how important......................IT IS to US..............Still learning from this...............Showing our appreciation, our talents to someone in my opinion is not that important than but more of our ACTIONS speak LOUDER as well as in our DAILY PRACTICE.........

This is merely thoughts of a very wordless individual in the open..............In short, don't even know how to talk..............Sigh..............Merdeka Day............Would not even be here.............Anyway with the almost all expense paid trip...........by the company.........Siapa tak mahu pergi................Guo pun pergi lor...........Ini baru Malaysia mah................

HAPPY MERDEKA TO ALL THE READERS...........MAY
YOUR WISHES AND DREAMS COME TRUE....................AND ALL FUTURE UNDERTAKINGS!!!!!

Forgiveness

Currently, at this mode of time forgiveness within one's self or the deception of one's own thinking on the outside world...............Seems to be playing..........Everywhere

Would the LORD actually give a second chance at all???? Would LIFE which had have been playing all the TIME has it actually ripens for US to see on where have WE wronged in our actions.............Thus, it is timeless for ones' actions..............WE cannot 'erase' the PAST which is easily done and 'part' with it........................Like a cat which has already enjoyed it's meal.......

Finding it more difficult than easy....................When the HEART has already been opened by someone.................IS IT TRUE??? May I ask this question? In LIFE which I know there is no SECOND CHANCE.....................Either YOU MAKE IT or YOU BREAK IT............Neither to hurt each of us but the HURTING seems to continue further and deeper than expected...............Nevertheless; when one sees a baby or a toddler..............One's heart could not help feeling the joy of holding the child who was once borne into this WORLD fragile, weak and small............

With each growing day, this toddler teaches us there is a WONDER in the JOY of LOVING..........LOVING without ASKING........Do not know how it comes about but after kissing the child's head it brings back memories................The JOY one do not know where it comes from but from the look of it......................This CHILD has brought a new meaning................A NEWER meaning...................

If this can be explained further with one's experience...............AT ALL............The HURT ITSELF is more PAINFUL................and DEEPER.................To explain such pain would be very PAIN...............As it may last on the duration of TIME..........IT TOOK YEARS just to OVERCOME such PAIN....................It causes more on EMOTIONAL, MENTAL, SPIRITUAL, TRUST, PHYSICAL,......................Put it this way, the LIST is endless...............Is endless............

Just Thinking

What would a person with unusual hobbies to pass time: A Lunatic Is Back To Blog.......

Cut the story short as for now:

Life definitely has its ups and downs no doubts if it ever satisfy one's desire to a certain extent. Sometimes this person believes that FATE does play a part in order to survive : Survival Of The Fittest Theme.........

Everything is just so IRONY nowadays; is like now you see them and now you don't. Very funny don't you think so??? Okay, okay laugh all you want or tease all you want anyway...
Maybe it is heredity...........Looks like one thing is missing for me at this time....

Who cares anyway...........I just came up with words and it goes like this:

Here Comes The Old Dame
With the Attitude
Temper Flares
Which Kills Many

No wonder
There is a book
Call being titled
To Kill A Mocking Bird

Authored by
Harper Lee
Sigh : A civil right
Book to consider

When you are
In court defending
Your Own Case
If there is

Right now; I think it is slightly a bit too long winded and also LIFE is teaching US daily............. Nowadays, waiting for my 'normal timetable' to be resumed again.............Which means the 'new cycle' of activities...........To occupy lots and lots of free time...............Since so free and also need to learn more new stuffs...........To 'activate' the brain somemore before it becomes 'senile' at this age.............As well as keeping physically fit............Emotionally and also spiritually occupied..................Just say need to permanently erase some things.............

A Time To Remember

Looks like the world would be a 'different era'..................Okay, not just in terms of 'era' but of phases in LIFE...............What is LIFE...................????? We make LIFE..............WE create LIFE..........Imagine each moment that we are in NOW; with the person who we LOVE, we CARE, we KNOW, we UNDERSTAND, we WORK, we JOURNEY our LIFES TOGETHER............

Starting to ramble non-sense again.............Sigh............What would be LIFE without MAKING LIFE although we ARE LIVING NOW..........Starting to understand LIFE A BIT..........JUST A BIT..................Am not fully enlightened...................If enlightened; I would not be stranded in Mother Earth..................That Spiritual Journey will be even LONGER................

Apart from that, starting your own life with someone else will be a different story altogether...
If any of you ask your parents............How do they manage to be together for so long? And also bearing our characters, attitudes, temparents????With constant arguements, misunderstandings, miscommunications, career demands...................How did they manage us with increasing use in terms of monetary use as well as status???Are we able to answer these numerous questions................In any ways and means at all???Maybe we are not them...........
Not siding with anyone it is just my opinions in merely expressing coming out from my brain currently before my brain goes beserk again....................

Especially with a person whom you have no idea................or do not even have the proper grasp on the personality................Call me a paranoid if you want to............At times a person will be still in doubts..............There are so many areas to be explored.....................Not just at an angle but in different angles..............It is the same with writting with YOUR FEELINGS, EMOTIONS, it makes a lot of difference in the sense we the 'bloggers' make YOU FEEL on HOW WE FEEL...................Sometimes when we write out in anger is the outlet for us to express our anger, disappointment, expectations, in OUR LIFE.....................

WE ARE THE LIFE........................

Insight

As a matter of fact; now my mind is more clear and in a proper perspective. No more doubts, no more question marks, no more self cursing or even blaming................In short, PAST remains the PAST..............If only it can only go inside my HEAD................If LIFE is any simpler than this.................

Bumbling again............or self ranting over mundane matters which is simple in solution or irregardless of what is playing inside my HEAD.................Getting on with my LIFE is my priority, and my CAREER...................A steady flow of career...............I will continue to do what I always have PASSION in doing them.................not just for the SAKE of doing them.......

Small or big changes can in fact change a person's personality............Or a person's self esteem............Not to elaborate too much on what is going much in LIFE.................

We do not know what will happen in the FUTURE, we can only do so in the present moment.....The fact is that WE cannot CHANGE the PAST...............as this is what mould our characters. Sometimes I wish that I have the strength to turn back time instead of moping over the current situation that I am having now or even keep on COMPARING with others who are more capable in terms of careers motivation, friends motivation, love motivation, spiritual motivation, or even families motivation, it is endless in this list of mine...................Gaining INSIGHT in LIFE..............is a matter of JOURNEY...........Yet....this JOURNEY.......................is still a long one to trek..................

A matter of fact, what do you expect from LIFE anyway???? I have been asking this question since GRADUATION day until I am working...............With the bozos I have been meeting as well as non-bozos..................Luckily no TRANSFORMERS who can TRANSFORM themselves from a car to either AUTOBOTS or even DECEPTIONS...........Just ranting out from my brain...............Like I said before; it is a curse sometimes...................It has always been a curse from the moment I started holding a pen or even typing out words from the desktop or the laptop...........Will be getting one for myself soon.............Not forgetting my dream lover 'digital camera'....................Sigh...................

Dreams Or Imaginations???

At times; I really wonder if LIFE is a fairytale sometimes...............As it has and always filled with number of surprises...............Wondering if I am able to take in anymore surprises.........

In short; when one is always filled with more painful memories than of good ones and the happy ones.............It makes one wonder if there is really a 'second chance' at all.............Scratching my head over this one as if I am able to comprehend what have been going on in my head for these past few weeks................Is there a 'second chance' for someone or even anyone at all in LIFE...............Jesus Christ.................At this rate that I am going now..................Is either the time for me to re-enter the Hospital Bahagia or even it is high time for me to meet a professional mental doctor................to analyze my brain..........or pyschology mental health at this moment.................

Not indulging further in this game of guesswork..............Which is never my forte' in terms of putting them into words..............A good description of me would be more of Jane Eyre or Elizabeth type of person.................But minus the affair with forbidden(married) man of course..................In her storyline......She does not even know that her employer already has a wife in the first place 'very much alive' in the house..................LIES.....................We live with them...........We forget them................Eventually, we learnt from them......................If there is such person like Mr. Darcy from the Pride and Prejudice...................Why not anyway???? If there is existence of such a person anyway.................Imagine if you are in my position..................What do you really expect from a person whom you hardly know or even notice if there is any 'difference'....................Building castles in the air............One would term them anyway.....................Call it the mind is runnning wild or even amok at this hour...............

Okay...............not to be too nosy over this particular issues of LIES, DECEPTIONS (don't mean the Autobots and Deceptions [Transformers] figthing in EARTH), CHOICES, VALUES,.............................Sometimes; when the pain is more than the actual experience...................It is difficult to see or sense the 'trueness' or would I say 'love' is for 'real'...............Or merely just the imagination or the infuation of some senseless teenager who is living out the dreams from her daily indulgence in romance .................books......................Pretty hard to figure out doesn't it..........................

Humor me.....................If not try to get somethings for me to 'crack' my head out solving them than to 'replaying'......................Them..........................It sure scares me................And also..........Committment.............................Just keep on praying and hoping that this is what it seems to be and not out from the books..............Or any indulgence of books.......................from Judith McNaught...............or even Virginia Andrews.............................

A Love Song

I am having a memory loss now at the moment; as if there is anyway or remedies to make them come back again.............In short; are you asking me to go and check in as a patient and go for hypnotherapy....................To recall what I have had lost............

Sometimes LIFE is not that easy as it seems and also the DILEMMA which I have been having until now is still bugging me.................Just keep my fingers cross that my mind is not playing tricks or if not getting myself admitted in the MENTAL ASYLUM is another alternative..............

Sigh..........This is what is 'playing' inside me right now and right here :

Life as it seems
Flying with time
As time is going by
Slowly or faster

A love song
Has been sung
Would it be a
Yes or No?

Is my mind
Playing tricks again?
Or just my Imagination?
Sharing with someone

Is only a beginning
There will be trials and errors
There is no manual book
However; we are called

Homo Sapiens
Together we build lifes
Together we build a bond
May last lifetimes

Or more lifetimes together
Is it true? Is it just lies?
Please let me know
FATE alone

Will never be enough
Seen enough and done
There is never enough
There are more to come

Is there a POSIBBILITY?
Shall I continue
With this puzzles of LIFES......
Or is there more to come............????

Life's Own Beauty

Okay, now the lunatic is back here blogging again.................after yesterday blog; it sure bugs me further......................However, now career is more important at the moment...........

Hearts affairs is actually a 'bonus'................Would I feel happy or sad? The question has always been a 'BINGO' question.........Name it Catch 22 situation.........If there is Ocean Eleven, Ocean Twelve, now upcoming Ocean Thirteen.............This one is Twillight Zone...........With Mission Impossible..........

Hmmm.................I have actually 'fears' 'doubts' and even 'questions'.................If I am able to answer them................This is LIFE...............Another segments are coming back here again:-

However as for now
Surprises seem to be in every corner
Not like in planned
If it is planned

Then I will
Not be in such situation
Flattered? Happy?
Doubts? Frusrations?

How do you term
This definition?
Twillight Zone
Or need a Mental Doctor

Mental Doctor where are you?
This lunatic is in deep trouble
Looks like going to need
Your medication

If it works
Thank God!!!!
If I need one
Tell me so!!!????

It is already time up..........For this lunatic..............To keep this blog shut up...............Before another round of unexpected non-sense blogging continues...............See you soon or would I say good night and have enjoy your beauty sleep...............For those who are so vain or for those who the hell cares about makeup, toner, sleeping mask.............etc.........facial products....
I want to sleep now..........................

Being Cursed???

Call me a type of person with 'irony' personality if it is to be more apt in terms of explaination anyway there is no one word which can be describing this so-called simpleton.......Especially with the curse that is solely hanging for the past few years.................Apart from that these are the following words is 'eating up' my brain section at the moment:-

As one would be putting
It in a more 'settled' mindset
If possible at this rate
As currently

It is my 'hibernation period'
I intend to hibernate
In order to rest my circuits
As my circuits have been 'overdone'

At the moment
For the hearts affairs
I am still at lost
No idea, no solutions, no explainations

If there is one
I would not be in this situation
In between 'hanging around'
Looks like now

I sound more of a 'ghost'
Or a 'walking spirit'
Seems LIFE is 'playing'
With me

Haven't been played enough yet?
Or the game has just begin
Seriously; now I am going to admit
Myself to the mental asylum

Me? Not an expert, so what?
Staying alert, BE MORE CAREFUL?
Any answers?????
It still bugs me.............

At This Very Moment

Sigh.................finally I have this wonderful time of mine after a few weeks of non-stop activities and a certain 'hibernation period' that I am able to blog again. In fact; it was a very tiring week for me as I was down with flu and sore throat which took about a week to recover as well coincided with the activities that was already pre-planned.

Finally; I can get to rest both my brains, my body and spiritual mind to the very sharp point before the next cycle begins again. Put it this way, if without any physical or non-physical activities I will be either agitated or irritated to make myself occupy as I do not enjoy being idle unless I am on 'vacation mode'................Particularly at this moment 'vacation mode' is not 'on' at the moment.................

In fact; I would feel 'lucky' since I have my 'bonus'...................This 'bonus' I would have noticed long time ago but I was too occupied with my personal activities to notice it until recently.......................Sometimes, I think GOD is 'playing' with me........................Or am I only dreaming.................At times; I think that my 'mind is playing tricks on me'...................Over my 'hearts affairs'.....................

Like I did mention before in my previous posts...............when it comes to 'hearts affairs' I am a very confuse person........................If LIFE is any easier than this issue over the 'hearts affairs'.........................................Sigh...................Blog again next time.......................

To Be Your Own Boss?

Just penning from the moment this brain of mine is shooting out words like nobody business :

Okay being your own boss
Sure has its perks
In terms of time management
Cost management

And of course the paycheck size
It is definitely bigger than
The normal employee salary
As well as you

Won't be having bosses breathing down your neck
And 'watching' your every movements
As well as 'checking' how many times
Have you entered the loos

Apart from that;
You will be having turnover employees
Wonder how many times
Can that be

You can brag and brag
On how much you are earning
The luxuries which you get
To enjoy lavishly

Without even bothering
That is being your own boss
As this is just only the beginning
When the time for successor

You will be having a headache
I mean a real headache
On who is qualify enough
To hold on to the baton

Letting Go

Call it an instinct or a 'sense' of 'gut feeling'..............In short that certain feeling............If only I am able to conceive this term into a more 'humane' term or understandable term..............For normal people to understand.........

Sometimes it is by chance or luck things happen; whilst for my case it is more of a curse than of luck to be interpreted it in a 'karmic sensibility'. Okay, just to be more humane in terminology of human senses in understanding simple English language...........After one curse and the next one keeps coming............I wonder if it ever stops.........I know that problems after problems continue and also testing more of my intelligence in dealing with 'senses' and also 'other senses'............Maybe it is from the past lifes which I was in and now it is reaping for me to overcome them at this moment.

At times; there are ways and means to understand the problems and also the curses that come along with it. No wonder it is neverending just to continue with these curses to gather what is more in store. Shesh.............Jesus Christ..............Now it is basically just continue with my life as for now................IF there is any 'bonus' I will keep you informed but how far can this life until I let go of my last breath in this Earth????

Just leave this answer to GOD....................As I am not GOD ALMIGHTY............

A Paradox of Personalities

Let me put them in proper terms
If you are able to control the situation
I will call you GOD
If you are unable to do so I call you a asshole

When you are so eager to be so
Self promoting and with such HUGE EGO
How on earth with money and credit cards
Bills continue mounting till the day

You hold your last breath
With such stupid hierarchy
No wonder it is only specialization
But without any proper education

Aspirations and perspirations
In reality 99% perspirations and 1% aspiration
I can be aspired to be an Entrepreneur but no money
I want to have my own centre but no political support

How on earth to go about with over used budgets;
Constant debts; and no balance in financing
But more of debts in most 'in' gadgets
High tech gadgets but still paying in installments

Wonder how long do I have to finish the installments anyway?
Everything is changing and you can have the biggest paycheck
But still in pokailogy syndrome
Money is never enough with constant needs to have new things in the market

When you are incompetence stating that you are a paradox
In short it is call hypocrites
And also non homo sapiens sub groups
Please forgive me for saying so

As it has been a curse to have such competency
Being a curse also be a blessing in disguise
For us homo sapiens some curses can
Be a rewards but don't even bother to think about them

As only fools will think of getting 'gains' and 'losses'
In businesses and also people owing them favours
Have you seen or met such fools before???
Please let me know the phone line is always free

Call It Another Day.......Sigh

Listening to the usual music hymns to relief myself from stress of work. Apart from that, there are issues which are recently resolved. Thankfully; I am glad that the PAST is PAST and NOW is the PRESENT.................PRESENT TIME

Always remember be in the present moment; yikes.............Most of the time, I will be forgetting them................Especially when it comes to my bloody temper...............Must also remember to control my temper.................When it comes to certain people..................Trust me you will regret that having me to blow my top off.....................No one likes them................

When you have started working again.................The daily routine is very tight; and still counting in my functions at the moment............Maybe need to take up some classes to further improve myself already since money is coming in..........................Better to learn some of the useful 'teachings' classes to spread the 'teachings'.......................Aiyoh..................still blabbing again....................This simple minded blabbings sometimes don't know whether can fit this blogsphere or not????? Or is it understandable to some of you???? Hmmm........better start reading again.....................And again................

Continue............

As I had said before
Hearts Affairs is making me very confuse
I am a confuse person
As per now

Anyway I know who is it
That is for me to make sure
As I dislike doubts, pranks, bets,
Coming from all types of people

In fact; just heal after more than a year
From fiasco of stupidity of homo sapiens
As well as the one pointedness mindset
Imagine the stupidity, boring, ulterior motives

Don't even want to dwell further into past
As I have started to accept one
Who has waited for almost a year
Just correct me if I am wrong

For 'THE PERSON'..........
Here everyone identity remains a SECRET
If not there will not be any more privacy
As I believe everyone has his or her own space

As for now
Learning from square one
Imagine the people; segments of societies
Yet to see more of those

In coming years
Many years more to count
Hopefully by the time
I hold the last breath

There will be someone around

As the LIFE is very uncertain with passages, trails and even jungle animals roaming around and may be dropping by every now and then...................Somehow or rather; I think GOD does has some plans for me to go around these check mate corners...............

More to come from this simple minded person.............A very simple minded person.........

For Now

Call it a day or whatsoever; with the activities..............sometimes I wish that I have more hands or even a few extra bodies to go around to different places to do the stuff which I won't mind doing them........................However; with my case I only have a pair of hands; a pair of eyes with additional Spectacles; a nose; a pair of ears and a pair of legs..............How far do you think that I am able to go around at this rate????

Jesus Christ!!!!! With so many functions happening at the same time how do you expect me to be around all the time????Not yet including my family...............Ahem............not from a partner yet...............but my current family that I am with....................Have any of your parents complain to you that you have not been spending enough time with them???? Well; I am one of those......................The problem is .........................If I were to explain it in details............It will take up the entire blogsphere...............Better not.............The best thing is you know; I know......

In short let me put them into whatever words that pop out from my brain; frankly speaking sometimes I really think that ...................I have been cursed................:

The last time I heard
The person with a
Very Ice Cold Queen personality
That used to be my tagline (Ahem; nickname)

Now; it seems to be different
I do not know how different
As I am not a mind reader
A normal homo sapien

Not like a Super Sapien (like in Smallville)
If I turn out to be one
I will be glad to tell
You that I am able to save Earth from disasters

Okay..........how ironic can you be
Or a paradox........Or whatever non-sense
With the limited time; more activities
With career now on the way

Better make it lasting and stable
As I am too tired for now
A homo sapien brain is currently
'Working in progress'........

Still working; wishing that it never stops
Or ever stops
It will stop when I have my last breath
In this Mother Earth

As I do not have the intention
To stop doing what I have always love doing
The passion in doing them
Or making them real for others

Apart from that
The Hearts Affairs will need to put on hold
As I do not want to be confused
In short I have always been confuse over this

Now.............this words......WILL BE CONTINUED

Fate

Now may it be the last time
I would be blogging
Or some other time
To blog

As tomorrow is another day
To be conquered oneself
With the usual people
In daily working lifes

Hey, we cannot choose
Or the fate we were borne into
Or give in; as this is not the way
Change will I

You may hate me for this
Or thou' might find this extremely funny
Some would classify me as insane
Or truly insane..............

Sigh.........if LIFE is any easier
With the hearts affairs; and the life affairs
Now taking one step at a time
Without hurting someone whom

You realize now in your own heart
That is for me to know
Not for you to find out
As prefer to keep everything below radar

That is the way I like my things are
So now is the time for me to stabilize myself
In terms of career before proceeding into the
Hearts affairs...............at this rate

Just Say It

Just some of the thoughts that come across my mind lately : Consider it a curse or not also cannot if not what is the point in having a brain for. For processing information, generating new ideas; forming opinions, lashing out dissatisfactions, anger as well as other mundane stuffs which is in our daily lifes....................

Jesus Christ; with the blogging way that I have been blabbing lately it is a sure sign of work depression................Hunger to challenge myself further............Improving further; sharper, wittier, just get on with life as the way it is for now.................

These are my following thoughts at the moment :

Some would consider my life
To be a luxury one
Put it this way
The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence

How much we have put in
Do not declare on how much we are
Able to achieve in life
The chances to prove ourselves

I would say to be endless
As typing now
Either now I am consider as a 'walking zombie'
The better way is 'insane writer bipolar disorder'

Sounds absurb to some
My life; some would be calling them torturing
Others would be commenting : Oh!!How nice!!!
In short; how nice can it be???

If this question is answerable
I would not even have this blog
In the first place
Finding my own career, life and trekking around the world

Some are earlier than mine, later than mine, or even 'on time'
Very funny; on how life can actually turn out to be
At this very moment; just be grateful where you are now
For me there are some issues or targets not achievable yet

Just say it; lash out the anger than to keep it inside
Either it will kill you inside out
Than to be keep silence killing you further
For spiritual;emotional, physical well being

In the first place we would not be
Classify as a human being
We are able to do on how things are done
As we have put ourselves in charge

If life is any easier than this
Easier said than done
The path is not as smooth
If smooth; then GOD bless us so.................