Pre-Wesak or ????

Call it just the feelings................okay, okay, maybe a bit too dramatic.............For a change, would prefer things to be different................At least, just for the following years to come.....
Don't know why...................Just don't even know why at all.................Looks like crapping again................All the time..................this over-wrecking brains........................Just spitting out words.......................

By the way things are now:-

Just dreaming away
Looks like
Have been doing that
For so long now

Maybe it's just purely habit
Or merely day-dreaming
Not even sure yet
On how things are

At the moment
What is going on??
Seems to be senseless
Maybe losing sense of orientation

Or maybe just too exhausted
Or just over-exertion
Don't know what is it
Just don't even know

Just don't know anymore
At all, or just merely
Just merely passing
Day by day now

Just waiting for another
To come and go
Like TIME just STOPPED
Don't know for how long only...................